
No, not like that. Well, he was a little nutty, but in a good way.
I'm up in Charlotte visiting. As good as it is to see everyone, each time I'm up here, I'm so aware that someone is missing. Everyone has gone to bed. Dad would have been up if he were here. He probably would have asked me to pick out a good movie for us to watch. I'd have dug through the giant pile of old VHS movies that have been collecting since 1981, before deciding on A Few Good Men for the hundred and first time. About half way through the movie, he'd have headed into the kitchen and fixed us a midnight snack. Maybe some pepperoni and cheese with some crackers and a little hot mustard. Man, am I gonna miss those midnight snacks.
I actually just hit up the kitchen for a little midnight snack myself and as I was rummaging through the freezer, I spotted a little envelope. I pulled it out and saw that it was the last of a bag of
pistachios. The bag was folded over and cut down to size - just big enough to hold the remaining nuts. They had even been shelled, I imagine one night about this time, then tucked them away for a rainy day.
We often had
pistachios around the house growing up. Dana used to call them '
spinachios'. Every year, Grandma and Papa would wrap up a giant bag for Christmas and stick them under the tree. In the evenings, our family would often snack on them. Those nuts got us through many a winter snacks! In recent years, Dad carried on the nutty tradition as we all got similar packages under the tree.
There is an art to eating pistachios. First of all, you've gotta have the right nut. None of that colored, red crap. You want the all natural pistachios, preferably with the word 'colossal' somewhere on the bag. You place the nut in your mouth and suck the salt off. Then, carefully place it between your front teeth, with the opening facing down, and bite down until the shell pops open revealing that delicious, green prize. Repeat until the bowl is filled with shells and mouth is chapped and puckered from the salt.
Well, I wasn't sure what to do with the pistachios but I decided to eat them. They were salty and sweet and delicious. And I felt terribly guilty for eating them. God, I wish he could be here to eat those nuts. It's funny how
everything reminds me of him. A song in a movie. My little boy's dimples. My mom's sad eyes. A nut. But, I wouldn't trade it. I want to remember. Thanks for the snack, Dad. I miss you.